Live, laugh, and love life!!! Why sit and not do anything with your life when you have the ability and capacity to conquer the world. Being amazing is a gift given to everyone that should not be wasted. Everyone should get up get out and get ahead :)

delacroix:

literally and poetically.

With all of the free time I have I sould blog a lot more. I guess I just feel confused on what to blog all of the time. Most people have a consistent topic they blog about but my mind is all over the universe. I’m going to do my best to make my blog more interesting and keep it updated. I need to get it together!!!

Goodmornin sunshine shine bright today even if clouds come don’t let um take that shine away smile sparkles and lights the day as if heaven has finally came. Goodmornin sunshine.

My escape

She seemed to write him letters but failed to send them. Their love was epic, one in a million, rare. Every future book they began to write with others had a dedication to eachother. Time flies as change walks over turning the pages of hope to words of despair. It seemed as though they began as a love of no other they ended with a foreign feeling. Making someone u knew religiously to someone youve never met. The shoes changed picking up dirt from different tracks. Songs lost their melody and nothing was left. They thought goodbyes were taboo and were scared to let go in fear of falling and never coming back. All risks are worth taking and that love that began so epic dissolved into a non existence. Some pain pills can cure, time can cure, others can cure, drugs can cure, but some pain is just with you a lifetime. Tattoos can be on the heart but they never heal. It’s time to let it all go.

Sometimes things are unexplainable. That feeling we get when we want to scream at the top of our lungs or cry our eyes out doesn’t carry a specific explaination. I feel very overwhelmed with emotion. My mind is so confined with emotion and craze I don’t know what to do. I need to vent in some way and I just don’t know how. I wish I had a friend I could talk to and they would just listen, or a place I could go just to express myself. Maybe one day I will have that peace. Until then I’m restricted to words written on paper or in this phone. Oh peace please find me soon.

_Daq

What do we get when all their is, is lies. Can a liar believe anyone? Especially the one they are lying to? Questions I’m sure many have asked but never seemed to have answered. To be honest I don’t think their is an answer. What’s sad is that people lie and hurt other people they love for reasons that aren’t even worth what they lose. Why is that? Then we all become numb to what’s real and fake. What keeps us holding on is love. Whether it’s to that person or to a creation that came from that situation. I think that sometimes people are pushed to a limit that they can never redeem themselves from. Sometimes we have to let go of what we wanted to hold on to.

I realized through these real eyes his real lies. Memories trapped in my head like a caged bird. They stop, pause, rewind and replay on a regular. Why is it in your presence I only see the gift of the past what smiles and laughs we had. Over the phone all I hear is “whomp whomp whomp I love u whomp whomp” I guess it’s because I hear what I want instead of what I need. Allowing a small hint of hope to fulfill me and keep me believing like a child wishing on it’s first star that it will be. What Gepetto didn’t tell Pinnochio is that those wishes are bullshit unless your making moves to see them happen. And fortunately for me my mama did. I wasted a little time bein sad because we didn’t last but in all honesty she can have your sorry lyin ass. I don’t need that in my life when I’m pushin forward and doin right. You gave me the worst but it brought out the best and for that I thank u. My happiness and love is no longer your “problem” or concern just take this as a good lessoned learned.

Heartbreak, heartache, how much time does this thing take, wake up and smell your cologn look to my left and I’m still alone, did I lose you or did you just find something better, no comparison right, you got me stopped on a green light, memories cut deep like a knief to skin but the blood isn’t thick it’s thin, draining my veins of a so called love I thought existed, when really it was an illusion presented, My hearts broken in half, but I took all the pieces back, I give you my love and you take it for granted, I thought u wanted us back what happened, jus do you cuz you do that well, Imma do me farewell, a million goodbyes this ones the last, I’m no longer the bitch from the past, but the bitch from the future who you miss, the one that you forgot about and dissed, it’s over man I’m done with the games, cuz we constantly play but shit stays the same, I hope u appreciate what you got cuz what you had is gone, I’m away trying to find my own, like chris breezy I gotta chuck the Deuces, watch my middle finger go up while the index finger follows, I’m not cold, just empty and hallow, get up out my face like Mariah and nicki said, cuz if yo girl only new I was your Lil secret she would bust the windows out yo car, I’m movin on like mya your not irreplaceable, so to the left, call Tyrone and get yo shiet, it’s a wrap!